Empty
Why an empty heart is the heaviest to carry? Now, the feeling of emptiness fills my head. I question a lot regarding this. It feels like I need to wear fake kinds of feelings just to survive everyday. Like smile even I don't feel like to, excited when it's just nothing, willingly acccept what hurts me like I deserve that and many more unreal things. Am I torturing myself? Do I need to change and be like somebody else? Should I just be selfish or care about others just a little but not too much? And many more thoughts running through my head and lingering in me most of the quiet time. No answers, just more and more questions. I even think that I'm losing myself and realize that I've been lost for a long time. I want to be back like who am I used to be but I just can't. No interest to even really try. The me before is someone who truthfully cherish people ar...